YOU GOT THIS THING is a creative self-care journal to inspire young people living with any "Thing" (any ailment, disability, disease, disorder, illness, injury or syndrome) to dream big and follow their bliss.
Written from a non-medical perspective, this journal helps young people understand the many non-medical challenges they might encounter after diagnosis. The journal is full of positive thoughts, coping methods, creative visualizations, coloring pages, lovable "Things" who give comforting advice and a fun art project that aims to bring HOPE, LOVE and JOY to those who need it the most.
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"I am absolutely in love with this book!" - Laura K.
What does YOUR Thing Look like?
Things have been created that have Lyme Disease, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, POTS, SVT, Syncope, Dysautonomia, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Glaucoma, Celiac Disease, Fibromyalgia, Allergies, Cervical Facet Syndrome, Multiple Chemical Sensitivity, Migraine, Pigment Dispersion Syndrome, Heart Disease, Meniere's Disease, ADHD, depression… and more! How cool is that? Let's keep the awesomeness going!
This is Ajahn Grrrmumble. He represents my Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. Why the weird name, and weird robes?… In Buddhism, many monks will go by the first name Ajahn, which translates as teacher. As my invisible cosmic zebra is my biggest teacher, I thought it was fitting that he be a Buddhist Monkster. (Monk + monster, I’m very proud of that one). His paws are dark purple to signify the blood which pools in my legs, his eyes are confused (and admittedly slightly crazed) with dark circles to signify the fatigue, and his twisted horns represent the dizziness I experience every single day. His belly represents the colours of the planet earth, to represent the fact that I often feel like a watcher, like I’m stuck in a glass bubble watching the world pass me by. I can also assure you that this big fluffy guy is incredibly bendy. This sounds cool (and looks pretty cool if I say so myself) but underneath this fun exterior lay very unstable joints, which rarely stay where they need to stay. Although he’s a little scary, I happen to think he’s very loveable. He’s taught me so much, and will continue to do so.
I call this Thing CYSTER. I am very cyst prone and have had many surgeries to remove cysts from my body. I had a dermoid cyst in my ovary and had to get my ovary and fallopian cyst removed. I also had a cyst in my arm, on my head, on my fingers and toes. They don’t usually hurt, though, which is a good thing.
My Thing has pigment dispersion syndrome, which is this thing in my eye that makes the color part (the iris) flake off which causes the pressure inside my eye to go up which can cause glaucoma, which is a disease that can make me go blind. I take medicine to lower my eye pressure and have to take that for the rest of my life. Despite this, I am grateful I can still see. So this Thing is called EYE-C (for short). I also have this thing in my eye called Asteroid hyalosis (yup, just like real asteroids in space). There are about 400 of them floating around in the white part of my eye. Sometimes, if the light is shining from behind, I can see them and each one refracts light in weird directions which makes it hard for me to look at flashing lights or bright headlights when driving.
So, I know that this is TOTALLY different than what I usually post, but this is my #icz. It represents my syncope. Syncope is a condition when your heart rate and blood pressure drop very suddenly, causing you to faint. I also have a SVT, too, which causes my heart to race without exercise, etc. I chose a bird to represent them because birds get tired from flying a lot, and I get tired from doing a lot of activity. Also, birds might get dizzy from the heights that they fly to, and dizziness is a big part of my Syncope. It also represents the paleness in my face from the blood which pools in my feet/legs due to my low BP. I drew the heart on my bird big because that is the biggest thing that affects me. Thanks!
I have social anxiety and sometimes like to blend in and be invisible.
My Thing has POTS, which is a short name for Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, which affects my heart and makes me feel really sick some days. I call it my Love Bug.
My Thing has scoliosis and I call it Music Man.
This is my “Invisible Comic Hippo”. I chose the hippo because I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/Myalgic Encephalomyelitis and I felt the hippo could represent this pretty accurately. I often feel like I weigh 200kg, and the best way I can explain the aches/pains and fatigue is like having weights strapped all over your body. As you can see, hippo has weights all over her arms. I’ve also made her head proportionally bigger than the rest of her body, as I find some of the neurological symptoms the hardest to deal with – brain fog, slurring speech, not being able to think clearly or logically, forgetting where I’m going or what I’m doing, etc. Hippo is also covered in red, representing what I’m like during a crash!! Any tiny noise can send me off or can feel unbearable. The bags under the eyes show the fatigue side of the illness, and the many red nasty pimples show all the toxins that have trouble escaping when you have CFS/ME. Headaches are often a new normal for lots of sufferers, and I know for me they are a clear warning sign for when I’m starting to overdo it, or have done too much. This is shown by Hippo’s big red blob running along her forehead. Last but not least, the big bulge in her tummy shows the many leaky gut / food intolerance symptoms CFS/ME sufferers experience. Although Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is cruel and debilitating, it’s not all doom and it certainly doesn’t define me. This is why I’ve dressed hippo in bright clothes. Because that’s when I’m happiest – dressed up and seeing my beautiful friends and family. ❤️
This is my Thing called vertigo (which I nicknamed Dizzy Lizzy). It’s basically the worst feeling I’ve ever felt, like the whole world is spinning. Vertigo is because I have this Thing called Ménière’s Disease, which affects my inner ear. It is not fun but now I understand what is happening when it happens so I don’t panic as much anymore.
I have multiple chemical sensitivity so sometimes I feel like I’m in a bubble, afraid of coming into contact with things that might make me feel sick.
This creature is inspired by the beauty, fragility and speed of the hummingbird as well as the digestion, elasticity, and temperature regulation of the snake. As many individuals with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS), I also have Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS). POTS is an autonomic nervous system dysfunction that upon positional changes causes my heart rate to increase from approximately 80 bpm to 130+ bpm as my blood pressure drops to 90/60 (a healthy individual’s heart rate remains relatively stable). My heart currently receives rest by laying down flat, hydration, salt, the help of beta blockers and medicine used to treat orthostatic hypotension. The hummingbird gracefully handles heart rates of up to 1,263 bpm and is able to reduce its heart rate to 50 bpm to conserve energy. Another thing we have in common is the inability to stand on our feet. Sadly for the hummingbird, his feet are too small to walk on the ground. My feet are overly sensitive, making unbearable for me to walk or stand – but at other times I can fully enjoy being on my feet. The hummingbird’s beauty is mysterious, amazing and untouchable. As for the snake, I always believed the myth that they could dislocate their jaw to eat. I thought this was amazing, until pieces of me started dislocating. It’s not exactly the best feeling in the world, but everything does pop back into place!
My Thing has depression. Sometimes when I feel like a blob of nothingness and when I talk to others, I’m unable to fully process what is being said and the world just looks like a big blob. So that’s why I called my Thing BLOBBY.
This is MOZZA. It is this Thing I take care of called allergies and I am constantly blowing my nose, sometimes I wish there was a tissue permanently stuck to my nose.
My thing has glaucoma, and I hope it doesn't go blind someday. I often use my ears to hear when I can't see fully what is going on around me. I call it Sonar, because there's lots of ways to take in information, not just with your eyes.
My Thing I named Alice and represents the aura I get during a migraine headache, which sometimes makes you feel like you’re in Alice in Wonderland and your head feels too big for your body. My auras are very strange, the first time I had one I thought I was losing my mind, but apparently this is ‘normal’ and so now when they happen I just try to relax and enjoy the show.
This my Thing, my pet dragon. My illness makes my skin feel like it's on fire and I like to imagine that cool water is surrounding me to make me feel better.
By Amanda C., 34 years from EDS-Foundation Netherlands The face has a mask because we often put on a mask because of incomprehension in society. The heads in the back right represent society. The question marks because many of them often do not judge, which can be seen in the expression of the heads. The face with a mask has next to the question mark an exclamation mark that says together: “It is difficult to understand, but just respect me.”
by Laura B., 36 years, EDS-Foundation Netherlands May I introduce you to my invisible cosmic zebra? This is Fluff. Fluff often suffers from the abdomen, which sets off due to gastrointestinal problems. And if the belly is set too far, stretch marks will develop. Fluff is not so sorry, but sometimes it is annoying because it has so much extra skin. Fluff is very energetic, but because of wobbly legs, cold feet and therefore less feeling and double seeing in different ways, sometimes go wrong. That immediately results in bruises and scars. Fluff sees that as victory signs, silly Fluff. The heart of Fluff is not always where it went; it feels as if it wants to escape, with Fluff you can even see a print of an escape attempt. The needles and clouds are often in the way, but as you can see, Fluff has no fingers and his arms are too short. So just pulling out the needles or waving away the clouds is not possible. Fluff is also often tired, because his plug is broken. All this means that Fluff has to take many extra things with him on his adventures. Just by a string, so that it does not all blow away. What I am proud of is that, despite everything, Fluff continues to smile and still goes on an adventure without fear. Fluff’s ears are very special. Because he can not only hear well with it, sometimes it seems that they are connected to other parts of his body. If something nice is planned, then it may just be that already comes loose. Then the question is always whether the fun can still continue. Fluff is therefore always afraid that something will go wrong, and tries to compensate with intensely precise planning. But yes, that does not always work well.
My Thing has Lyme Disease, babesiosis and Bartonella. Feels like my body is electric, zapping and buzzing.
This is my Thing, a sea creature who mostly lives in the deep depths of the ocean. My chronic illness sometimes is in remission but when it comes out, it's very clear how big it is and how much I always think about it even when I can't see it.
This is my invisible pet, who I call Pretty Kitty. I am autistic but also get easily overwhelmed by my surroundings. When that happens, I like to imagine Pretty Kitty sitting next to me. It calms me down.
I like to think of my Thing not a my "pet" but as a precious little baby that I have to take care of every day - to love gently, to be kind to and sing lullabies to at night. I'll always be a mother to my invisible chronic illness. It's a part of me, it's something to love.
This is my Thing for this thing I have called ADHD which I named FOCUS. Sometimes I talk too much so that is why there is something covering its mouth, which I wish would help remind me to pause so others can talk too. I also can never sit still, so this is why my thing has weights on its legs to remind me to ground my energy and try to stay present in the moment. I drew my Thing not as it is but how I wish it would be. I wish I could remember things that could help my Thing but I usually forget because I have a terrible memory.
This is my Thing. I love birds, they seem so free compared to all the restrictions that I have to live with.
A pet with a Thing of his own
“Freedom” by Anna R, 66 years from EDS-Foundation Netherlands My limitations can feel overwhelming. The body has limitations in place and time. If you have EDS, those limitations can be felt in terms of vulnerability and lower body capacity. The mind, on the other hand, is as free and large as space. Even if you have EDS, you are always free to get your thoughts on the situation that you experience. I made this drawing after I recently went through a process of mourning again. Mourning that the loss of functions, capacity, and mobility become palpable. I felt caged in my body. Until the moment I remembered and realized again that my mind is fortunately clear and has no limitations due to the power of imagination. I understood that I had created this mental freedom for myself.
My Thing has cervical facet syndrome, which was caused by an injury to my neck. I was really lucky it wasn’t worse, so I call it my Lucky Ducky.
My thing has fibromyalgia - I call it my Sensei because it is my teacher and guides me on my path of what I can and cannot do. It's also really sensitive to pretty much everything and I wish my body was softer so it didn't hurt so much so that's why I gave it fluffy feathers of protection.
“Thank you for creating this book! It brought so much JOY to my life!” - Hannah, Age 16
REVIEWS
"This book is AMAZING! If you have an invisible illness and haven't checked out Jossea Rilea's story/website you're missing out on extremely valuable resources. I am beyond impressed and admire the heart Jossea has put into all of her work. Thank you Jossea for your dedication, valuable insight and creativeness! You've found a way to make having a Thing fun!??" - Ashley, Age 24
"While this appears to be marketed for youth, I personally think it's great for adults as well (I'm 32). The whole concept of the workbook is rather playful & imaginative; however, it also provides a safe space for processing & expressing difficult emotions, thoughts, & experiences related to life with chronic illness. It offers many different avenues for coping with a life-altering illness and learning to befriend the Thing we often perceive as our archenemy. Some of my favorite practices in the workbook include a gratitude bank, negative thought twists (basically an intro to CBT), a goal list, a dream list, visualization exercises, and a page that allows you to design a graphic image of what you think your Thing might look like. It's a very therapeutic & encouraging workbook. (i.e. MCAS, Crohn's, CFS, etc)." - KT, Age 32
"Wasn't feeling good today so I curled up on the couch and colored. This book is amazing! Every zebra, spoonie, etc. needs this book! -Anna, The Artsy Zebra, Age 13
"Brilliant! WOW! I LOVE IT!! It's perfect. It has exactly what is needed when you feel that ill. You really captured it." -Kim, Licensed LCSW
"I have a chronic illness myself but also am a child life e-volunteer. Your book is truly going to make a difference in the years to come. I wish I had such a book when I was in my pediatric years." -Katrina, Age 24
"Recommended for all the Spoonies in Spoonie Land!" - K, Age 32
"This book is amazing! I suffer from depression. My 8 year old son has anxiety and OCD and I know that he would benefit from these books. I think it would be great if EVERY CLASSROOM has them for kids to learn about this and understand better that illness is not always visible." -Sarah A.
"I'm a huge believer in making time for journaling, reading and creating. This book allowed me to discover and organize so much about myself, my condition, my doctors, my support community and additional techniques that I was not aware of. If you know someone with a chronic condition, share this to help!" -Ashley P.
"You've thought through nearly every aspect of how your Thing affects your life and ways to live positively. Thank you for this gift." -Megan B.
"I suffer from a couple of invisible illnesses and so does my daughter, these would all be great to have!!" -Lynda C.
"Fantastic book (I have many zebras of my own) could've done with these years ago!" - Amanda R.